Dear Theo,
This morning I went to Uncle Stricker's with Uncle Cor and
had a long talk there on you know what subject. In the evening
at half past six Uncle Cor took me to the station. It was a
beautiful evening and everything seemed so full of expression,
it was still and the streets were a little foggy, as they so
often are in London. Uncle had had toothache in the morning,
but luckily it didn't last. We passed the flower market on the
way. How right it is to love flowers and the greenery of pines
and ivy and hawthorn hedges; they have been with us from the
very beginning.
I have written home to tell them what we did in Amsterdam
and what we talked about. On arrival here I found a letter from
home at the Rijken's. Father was unable to preach last Sunday
and the Reverend Mr. Kam stood in for him. I know that his
heart burns for something to happen that will allow me to
follow in his footsteps, not just some of the way, but all the
way. Father has always expected it of me, oh, may it come about
and blessings be upon it.
The print you gave me, “Heaven and earth shall pass
away, but my words shall not pass away,” and the portrait
of the Reverend Mr. Heldring are already up in my little room,
oh, how glad I am to have them, they fill me with hope.
In our family, which is a Christian family in the full sense
of the term, there has always been, as far as one can tell,
someone from generation to generation who was a preacher of the
Gospel. Why should there not be a member of our family even now
who feels called to that ministry, and who has some reason to
suppose that he may, and must, declare himself and look for
means of attaining that end? It is my prayer and fervent desire
that the spirit of my Father and Grandfather may rest upon me,
that it may be granted me to become a Christian and a Christian
labourer, that my life may come to resemble, the more the
better, those of the people I have mentioned above - for
behold, the old wine is good and I do not desire new. Let their
God be my God and their people my people, let it be my lot to
come to know Christ in His full worth and to be impelled by His
charity.
It is so beautifully put in the text, “As sorrowful,
yet always rejoicing,” what that charity is, and in Cor.
13 she “beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth
all things, endureth all things. Charity never
faileth.”
My heart is filled today with the text about those on the
way to Emmaus, when it was toward evening and the sun was going
down: “But they constrained him, saying, Abide with
us.”
It is dear to you, too, that “sorrowful, yet always
rejoicing,” keep it in mind, for it is a good text and a
good cloak to wear in the storm of life, keep it in mind at
this time now that you have been going through so much. And be
careful, for though what you have been through is no small
thing, yet as far as I can see there is something still greater
ahead, and you too will be put in mind of the Lord's word: I
have loved you with an everlasting Love, as one whom his mother
comforteth, so will I comfort you. I shall comfort you as one
who comforteth his Mother. I shall give you another Comforter,
even the Spirit of truth. I will make a new covenant with you.
Depart, touch no unclean thing, and I will take you to me for a
people, and I will be to you a God. And I will be a Father unto
you, and ye shall be my sons and daughters. Hate the evil and
the places where it is rife, it draws you with its false
splendour and will tempt you as the devil tried to tempt Christ
by showing Him “all the kingdoms of the world, and the
glory of them”; and saying, “All these things will
I give thee, if thou wilt fall down and worship me.”
There is something better than the glory of the things of this
world, namely the feeling when our heart burns within us upon
hearing His word, faith in God, love of Christ, belief in
immortality, in the life hereafter.
Hold on to what you have, Theo, my boy, brother whom I love,
I long so fervently for the goal you know of, but how can I
attain it? If only everything were already behind me, as it is
behind Father, but it takes so much hard work to become a
Christian labourer and a preacher of the Gospel and a sower of
the Word. You see, Father can count his religious services and
Bible readings and visits to the sick and the poor and his
written sermons by the thousand, and yet he does not look back,
but carries on doing good.
Cast your eye up on high and ask that it be granted to me,
as I ask it for you. May He grant your heart's desire, He who
knows us better than we know ourselves, and is above prayer and
above thought, since His ways are higher than our ways and His
thoughts higher than our thoughts, as high as Heaven is above
earth. And may the thought of Christ as a Comforter and of God
as a lofty dwelling be with you.
Best wishes on your journey, write soon and accept a
handshake in my thoughts. Goodbye, and believe me, always
Your loving brother, Vincent
I hope Father will soon be better. Try to be in Etten at
Easter, it will be so good to be together again.
It may be said of many things in the past, and also of what
you have been through: “Thou shalt find it after many
days.”
At this time, Vincent was 23 year oldSource: Vincent van Gogh. Letter to Theo van Gogh. Written 22 March 1877 in Dordrecht. Translated by Mrs. Johanna van Gogh-Bonger, edited by Robert Harrison, number 089. URL: https://www.webexhibits.org/vangogh/letter/5/089.htm.
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