Dear Theo,
Many happy returns of the day; I hope you will have a good
time, and great prosperity in the year that is to come. Time
passes so quickly, the days fly by; still, something must
remain, and the past is not totally lost. We may become richer
and firmer of mind, of character, of heart; we may become
richer in God; we may become richer in the pure gold of life,
the love for each other, and the feeling “I am not alone,
for the Father is with me.”
So be it with us all; that prayer of our father's is a good
one: “Unite us closely, O Lord, and let love toward Thee
strengthen this bond more and more.”
I hope to see you soon, for I intend to stop off at The
Hague before going on to Amsterdam. Don't breathe a word to
anyone, for my only wish is to be close to you. Next Wednesday
morning I am leaving for Etten where I intend to spend several
days; then, I put my hand to the plough.
I wish you had been here yesterday; in the morning I heard
the farewell sermon of the Reverend Mr. Hooyer in the French
church. The church was crowded, and he spoke with fire and
enthusiasm; the sight of that grave, distinguished congregation
struck me - the whole had an extremely serious atmosphere. He
expressed his thanks for the love he had been shown by many,
particularly during the trying times in the beginning, four
years ago, when he had to wrestle with the difficulties of
preaching in the French language; for he is a Dutchman. Several
of the other preachers were here in the church. Yesterday's
sermon happened to be on the same words he had preached about
that first time. “Now we look through a mirror into a
dark reason, now I only know in part, but then shall I know
even as also I am known myself.”
In the afternoon I was in the Great Church to hear the
reverend Mr. Keller van Hoorn; his text was, “Our
Father.” In the evening I heard the Reverend Mr. Greeff,
whom I also heard the first Sunday night I was here in
Dordrecht. May the Lord bless thee and keep thee. The Lord make
His face to shine upon thee, and give thee peace. The Lord make
thee pray high prayers and think high thoughts. The Lord be thy
keeper and the shade upon thy right hand. May He be with thee
always until the end of the world.
I walked on to the churchyard at
the end of a black cinder track through the meadows --they
looked so beautiful in the twilight. The churchyard reminds me
of that drawing by Apol in Eigen Haard;1 a moat
surrounds it, and there is a house circled by pine trees - last
night a light was shining kindly through the windows - it is an
old house, and looks like a parsonage.
Much good may be in store for us in the future; let us learn
to repeat with Father: “I never despair,” and, with
Uncle Jan “If black is the devil, it is always better to
look him in the eyes.”
Write again soon; next Wednesday I shall be in Etten. Do you
have De Plancy's Légendes des Artistes, with wood
engravings after Rochussen? I hope to bring it for you. Between
times I have worked through the whole story of Christ from a
catechism book of Uncle Stricker's and copied the texts; they
reminded me of so many pictures by Rembrandt and others. I hope
and believe I will not repent my choosing to try to become a
real Christian and a Christian worker. Yes, everything in my
past experience may contribute to it: through the acquaintance
of cities like London and Paris and life in schools like those
at Ramsgate and Isleworth, one is strongly drawn and attached
to many things and books from the Bible, e.g.. Acts of the
Apostles. Knowledge of and love for the work and the life of
such men as Jules Breton, Millet, Jacque, Rembrandt, Bosboom
and so many others may become a source of new thoughts. What a
resemblance there is between the work and life of Father and
that of these men; I value Father's higher still. May God help
us, boy. A handshake and once more the very best wishes
from
Your loving brother, Vincent
Kind regards to the Roos family.
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A Dutch magazine.
At this time, Vincent was 24 year oldSource: Vincent van Gogh. Letter to Theo van Gogh. Written 30 April 1877 in Dordrecht. Translated by Mrs. Johanna van Gogh-Bonger, edited by Robert Harrison, number 094. URL: https://www.webexhibits.org/vangogh/letter/5/094.htm.
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