Dear Theo,
It is time for you to hear from me again. It is true,
however, that first impressions often change, for we know only
too well that all is not gold that glitters and that though
there may be a bright dawn, there is also a dark midnight and a
burning, oppressive heat at noon. But just as the morning hour
is blessed and is worth much gold, so first impressions keep
their value even though they pass, for sometimes they prove to
have been right after all, and one comes back to them. So write
me what you saw these first days and what your thoughts have
been.
Just now we are having bad weather here, and probably it is
the same in Paris. You will soon perceive that it is much
warmer there in summer than in Holland, and you will also see
thundery skies like the ones Bonington painted. The quarter of
town where you live is rather interesting. When one walks
through the streets there, or towards Montmartre in the morning
or evening, one sees many a workshop, and many a little room
that reminds one of “Un Tonnelier” or “Les
Couturières” or other pictures by Édouard
Frère. At times it is good to see such simple things
when one sees so many people who for different reasons have
strayed from all that is natural and so have lost their real
and inner life, and when one also sees so many who live in
misery and horror - for in the evening and at night one sees
all kinds of black figures wandering about, men as well as
women, in whom the terror of the night is personified, and
whose misery one must class among the things that have no name
in any language.
Last week one of the clergymen here died; he was known all
over the country (Pantekoek). He was buried last Saturday; that
procession on the path along the green borders of the Amstel
reminded me of “In Memoriam.” He was the father of
six children, the eldest about twenty years old. A large crowd
followed and they literally jostled each other. A memorial
service was held in almost all the churches yesterday. I heard
Uncle Stricker, who had known him very well. He preached in the
Oudezijd Chapel, where the boys from the orphanage and those
from the sailors' training school usually go. The sermon was
full of sentiment. Uncle's text was, “I am greatly
distressed and what shall I say?” He had undergone
terrible and long suffering. One night I heard one of his last
sermons, and it was clear from what he said that he shuddered
and shrank from each new day and night, especially from the one
which followed the exertion of preaching. Even then one could
not hear him without feeling with him and shuddering
involuntarily, for the road leading to the eternal home is
dark, and happy is he who is strengthened by the hope of a
better life when the darkness and night approaches.
Do not let all the new distractions keep you from reading
some good book, for instance, the one by Michelet on the
Revolution, or something by Thoré or Th. Gautier on
Paris and the time of the young painters and authors. Oh! boy,
how I should like to wander with you through the city.
Today I hope to take a long walk through the section of town
where I have not often been. I finally found the house in the
Breestraat where Rembrandt lived - you know we spoke about it
when you were here. Think of that particular picture in the
Luxembourg, “Qui vous reçoit me reçoit, et
qui me reçoit, reçoit celui qui m'a
envoyé” [He that receiveth you receiveth me, and
he that receiveth me receiveth him that sent me], and tell me
who painted it.
Paris is so beautiful in autumn; you will begin to notice it
toward the end of September.
Give also my compliments to Braat and Mutters. Have a good
time and write soon, and imagine a warm handshake from
Your loving brother, Vincent
I still have to thank you for your photograph; it is very
good and I am glad to have it, many thanks.
At this time, Vincent was 25 year oldSource: Vincent van Gogh. Letter to Theo van Gogh. Written May 1878 in Amsterdam. Translated by Mrs. Johanna van Gogh-Bonger, edited by Robert Harrison, number 122. URL: https://www.webexhibits.org/vangogh/letter/6/122.htm.
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